date:Saturday, July 26, 2008
time:8:18 PM
woots!!!so long bo blog le..SITI ah~I lazy reply=.=hehe..& hor,u can't force a sry out of me..cause iwon sae ^^THURS
FINALLY I pass my 2.4..was so HAPPY but sufferingT_T so pain~T_T
then lei,me & sya was da ONLY 2 girls running wit da whole class guys except jon & andy..keke..andy late,jon playing volleyball wit da GIRLS~!!!ahahs~ ren yao da pai qiu(ah gua play volly) muahahaha
then then..sya as usual la~run 1 round nia lor~pathetic..
SYA can u see this?v.v.pathetic lei~=.=
ahahs~!!!!then in d end,shafie go say wan race me..then lei,keke..race him...16.45min
FRI
don rmb le..pathetic me~
REMEMBER LE!!!
went out wit darings~keke..got so many secret cant sae here..shhH~!!!!!
then went PP aft sya went home...
&
SO MANY CPL KISSING OVER THERE!!!!IT'S LIKE WTF!
omg!!!!!!!!!!
SAT
eh..go pa-ser-ris park wit my darlings~!!!!!!!
go teach sya ride bike=.=
hahas...then leg like more worst..sad sad..
but happy!!wanted to eat satay..but never in d end~my satay~*drool*
kk..dono wat to rite..going transfer songs then go play play le~iwan play private server lei...
haix..
CS ah~
who u worx?
Really v.v.glad to know you you know?
I'm going change url soon...
So don't think we will 'see' each other anymore ba..
But really,thankx for everything ..
& I'm speaking from the deep of my heart ..
Thankx for tagging my tagbox .. Thankx ..
& everything you say eg:see doc,don't quarrel etc etc etc ..
Thankx ..
I really glad to know you ..
BB
keke..hu u sei?ps worx~make u get scolded by pple..
but thankx for helping me out ^.^o~ miaow~!!!!!
EVERY passerby
My words to you ALL >>>> =.=
anywhy .. THANKX GUYS & GIRLS ..
MMMUACK~!!!!!!
date:Wednesday, July 23, 2008
time:11:40 PM
Gastric now~sob~!!!talking to ros n her bro..talking abt our 'relationship'wit so many pple!!then laugh laugh..then his bro say take fire will kana get caught..dono..haix .. quarrel wit miaow miaow ..haix .. so sad lor ~ haix ..haix .. don't know la .. haix ..haix .. so pathetic ..so sad .. I'm going to stop calling or sms ..haix .. is like I'm the one who always msg/talk to 1st lor .. =.=think miaow miaow also don't want care me le .. T_T& my this post , if u are thinking of talking about it SITI , don't .. i warn u ^.^o~haix .. keep having rib-cage pain .. for few days le .. Last time pri sch already got le .. now is like worst .. expecially this few days .. & is hurting now ..so pain ~ haix ~ so pain ~ sob ~ can cry ? nop ^^especially is like when laughing or angry more pain .. That's why after I laugh so much today in PP , was like weak ?haix .. then angry with that siti .. also got bit pain .. then can't show it cause got auntie they all ..haix ~ so pain ~when did i hurt my rib ah ? or isit chest ?hehe .. dying soon ba ..just recieved a call just now from mum abt g.father ..haix ..Mummy ah ~ that one is MY grandfather u noe ? He is also the one who raise YOU ALL up .. He is my grandfather .. DO YOU KNOW IT ?!how much more times must u make me cry ? huh ?Heismygrandfather !!!haix .. wat can i do now ? haix ..imisshim~!!!!haix ..miaow miaow ah ~ haix .. u ah ~ haix .. haix .. why u don't want give way to me ah ? sad sad .. haix .. tired of keep quarrel le la .. haix ..haix ..pathetic yea ..haix ..sudd feel like eating mac ~ wakakaka ..dad not at home ..iwan my clock to turn back ..
date:
time:11:04 PM
aiyah~lazy go read siti de blog le la..writing in DARKNESS~woots~!!!cant see a thing..im so pro to write without looking..ahahas!!!jux now go eat noodle..haix..then..haix..haix..calling ros~wakakaka~oyah...siti o~my eng is bad..& i knew it..=.=& yup!tat is MY style&^^woots~py join in le worx?kaka..=.=talking talking now~ros talk~sob~ros oi-ing me~T_Te~she call me read her blog..=.-HER WORDS IS SO SMALL!!!!!& EXCUSE ME!my smallest word is not like replying u lor~BHB...imiss my hp...& my name in tag is Ayumutaiki hor!!!=.=yah~i dono how use bad words & tatz is like of cux lor=.=& i let go of my hair is for da sake of I HATE MY HAIR TO BE TIED=.=& idon go ard acting like im pretty or wat lor=.=idon put make up k?=.=& i agree tat i DO act cute sometime k?i wrote it in my blog too if u r blind n cant see it..=.= <<>still got wat..wait ah~& ahahas!!ahsoh?woa!u actually noe tis word?o.0 miricle..did i spell it right?AIYAH!sua..dono wat to say to u..like wasting time sia=.=& im going to end this CHILDISH BYTCHING fight wit u=.=ahahas!!!!!so hot~woots!!!!!!tmr maybe having war lo~hehe...n ros & sya..they wan help hu,i cant do anything..n... YES guess it right..u do call pple in=.=
date:
time:8:14 PM
Haix .. sya is also like helping that SITI lor .. haix ..Actually I was only angry for awhile nia lor ..haix .. then aft that not angry le .. & I did not even curse her lor .. =.= Then go admit just now .. baka ~haix .. wonder why am I writing this ..Maybe cause I really need let out my feelings .. Never mind .. this size can't be seen .. Cause I can't see it myself ^^Haix .. Then lei , that SITI go make my mood worst lor .. wasn't even caring about her le lor .. was like , sua ..My anger come fast & go fast too .. pple who noe me will noe de .. Then sya was like keep helping her .. Haix .. maybe ros also .. haix ..Suppose to know it ba ..after all , I'm a chinese .. The odd one ..No matter what happen , same races will still help each other de ba ..
But was really really sad when she was helping HER .. Think ros saw me crying ba ..Haix .. Friends .. Friendship do fade ba ..Maybe shouldn't hold on for too long ..Maybe the time for me to let go is coming soon ba ..Need to slowly learn how to let go .. Let go of friendship , of relationship ..pple grows .. & , I had to choose this hard way le ..Seems like I'm always growing in the hard way .. & haix .. family matters ..What happen to my family ?Haix ..Is it I must lost everyone first before god is happy ?Haix ..Really miss the days when I was young .. Grandpa .. pls .. pls wake ..I really really <3>Shouldn't cry now right .. But I'm .. Lucky no one here now .. everyone is outside ..Haix .. will everything end if I'm gone ?Must learn to grow up le ba ..Yup .. There is like no point to carry on holding to pple ..Time to let go is nearer ..But .. I really can't bear to let go of them ..I love them ..Ros , Sya , Der-vii & miaow ..I really love them ..keke .. But never mind ..Owning them once is enough ..Really .. Thankx for being here when I need you all ..You all are being loved by Ong Poh Hong ..I hate growing up ..Grandpa .. wake up pls .. Ah girl really really miss those days when u are playing with me ..I don't know how to express myself .. since young ..Should I learn to express myself ? My care etc ?Can't .. Just can't do it ..usless ..Haix ..Pathetic life ..But I love my soul because I know that I can care & love ..
date:
time:7:52 PM
sob~com cant use for like 2 days..sad lei..lots of things happ this few days..hp kana confisicate for 3 days le..miaow miaow dere..haix...so cold de lor~haix..imisshim~no mood now..thinking abt things..so many troubles..really many..haix..cried on sat..cried v.v.seriously..ros & sya didn't knew about it ..only miaow miaow know ..hahas .. he like so shock lor ..haix .. really can't take it ..haix .. then really very very weak le ..haix .. then so many many things happen ..Really very weak le ..then siti that thing .. then hp kana confisicate .. com can't use ..alot alot of things ..But being the POH HONG .. ^.^ohaix .. sorry miaow ~ i ate lolli again ..bleah .. sorry ~ haix .. then that jon thing in my class haix .. add more stress .. then sya like cold cold .. haix .. really really haix ..don't feel like telling all this le .. later then blog .. uncle they all staying here..haix..then use com will kajiao them..haix..Ong Poh Hong is after all .. still a 15 years old girl .. She just want to have a normal life .. Having many friends don't maer to her ..Just having few friends who is truly friends .. is enough ..She just want to lead a normal life ..
date:
time:7:26 PM
hey SITI WADA(or wahda..dono how spell=.=)pls get this clear..I did NOT EVEN go scold u in blog yea?& pls la!YUP!I CURSE U ^.^do u wanna noe wat i curse u?keke~ask me la!bloody asshole SHYT!!!muahahahaha!was good mood till see ur blog=.=seems like you love PLAYING with BALLS right?muahahaha!go play GUY's BALLS la!=.=& pls la~u noe chi?my business?come tok to me in chi since u uds..so lei,make sure to open ur ears BIG BIG..(ur ears are big=.= to listen to pple gossiping abt u)mux notice when i scolding u worx~^^don worii,i ll scold a bit LOUDER in case u cant hear^.^o& u noe why i don bther abt writing abt u in blog..it means tat,YOU ARE NOT WORTH TO BE WRITEN IN MY BLOG=.= WASTE MY TIME SEI~& is JI da gao not CHI dan gao=.=pls la~scold also scold proplii right?=.=diao u la~bloody mother fucker TOOTwakakaka!!!haix...wawa?omg..cha-kii looks more cute!!!=.= er xing da bian..=.=& get it clear bloody bytch..pple don like me,I ALREADY KNEW IT K ?there is no need YOU to say it .. so kpo gam lan ? =.=& my temper , my business ..I don't even care abt what pple talking or bearing k ?& im really GLAD to have 2 pple wit me when u ve..none^.^oso get this clear u toot k?im not disturbing u in blog yea?u wan fight?come play in RL la..=.==.=u wan u call pple come play lor..think u will ba~such a loser toot~of cuz will..call ba~i allow pple hu is SHAMLESS to find pple..so good~so lei,get it clear SITI , YOU ARE NOT WORTH MY TIME WRITING & PLAYING WITH YOU IN BLOG !WANT PLAY , PLAY IN REAL LIFE..& tat chi thing...=.= ur chi SUX..don be someone u cant be when u ARE SO FAR away frm it..it disgust pple u noe..don think u noe..muahahahaha!!!iim so evil to sae so many TRUTH abt u~muahahaha!!!& ur math test get 0 too lor!!!so lei,u got no right to sae pple zzz...& u zzz too k?=.=hu u think u is?disgusting...OMG!im going to vomit!!!!!!!& oyah~u sae i zzz in almost ALL lesson?o-O~u are saying urself too?omg..tatz silly=.=& ahahahs!!!jon also zzz lei...so u saying him?sorry worx jon~keke..ahahas!!my auntie jux read ur blog..=.=& get da fact clear ah SITI u are so bloody worthless in my eyes.=.=not as if like u are so GOOD...er xing!!!eeeeeeeeeeewoops~think I said too much about ur FACTS le ba..keke..need go eat le~go on ba~go tell our class pple ba!go tell ur watever pple ba~GBT o!not enough pple?wan me help u tell?onli dono wat will happ to u if i tell MINE pple abt u..bleah~so better if keep mute..^^ idonwan u get in things..keke..im not tat bad^^& really la..look at urself in da mirror 1st k?=.=oyah..& thankx!because of u,I swear tat I will do better than u in my studies^^so at least,frm this ass mouth of urs,there is something good about it..be thankful about it too ba!keke..& iwon curse u anymore le ba..cause lei,u have nth more for me to curse^^gossip?nop..won..onli will say bad things^^but don think will...cause I don really like to say pple thing aft my anger gone..& gratz to u,im not angry abt u..onli disgusted ^^hahas~chiao~bloody M.toot!
date:Sunday, July 20, 2008
time:12:51 PM
ytd went bbq wit miaow they all..haix..was funny yet angry..=.=The defination of "jiao wei" is not having "lan jiao"
haix..
was at da condo playing ma..
then u noe GUYS~
everytime play like crazy..so lei..they go push & throw all da guys--im a girl^^-- into da pool..
then da manager of da condo..---small auntie--come kb us lor..
then say what u all like tat jump is wrong de..then bla bla bla shyt..
then she go say cuz of us,the floor is wet..=.=
then i 1st time speak in..i sae da floor is wet cause it's raining..
then she go scold me lor!then go point at me!i hate pple pointing at me lor!
before tat,she was insulting us le..say if we got study not?if got,how come don uds..=.=
pls!is she who don uds k!it's raining!
then i hot lor..go scold back..
then miaow go pull me away..kao lor!culd shout wit her lor..
& mind u,im like d only girl there then she go kb me!=.=
if miaow never pull away,sure will scold more..keke..who call her dare scold onglai me ah!
then miaow call me relax..don care her..
k lor..don care lor..-.-
then aft tat,we never play le..
then those anderson sec guys were swimming..
tat jiao wei auntie come back again..
say cant wear boxer go swimming..
cause got pocket..was like "wtf?swimming pool also can then here can't"
so lei,i v.v.CALMING go ask her what is her defination of swimming trunk..=.=
then iwas sadly,da only girl there..then all d guys talk to her like wan quarrel..=.=
even da formal guy also..then he call me to shh~
he was talking so FIERCLY lor..=.=
im like so soft soft lor..using those acting voice..
then lei,miaow go sae wat jiao wei..
then tat auntie go scold miaow la!
was already trying to control my temper le..then aft she scold miaow,kao!nearly cant control lor!then tat formal guy keep call me shh!
pls la!can see frm tat jiao wei auntie de LJ face tat she don & won listen to guys..=.=
& im like da girl..
wanted to tell her diam & fuck off!
wat jiao wei bo jiao wei!nim bei also bo jiao!u got JB i also got!then we 2 can talk not!
was thinking & NEARLY say it out..then rmb tat this condo de owner is not my friend..later make him kana then haix~
so lei..keep all those words..=.=
jiao wei auntie gong jiao wei..=.=
then aft bbq thing...go eat mac..=.=
return home at abt 2+..
& how come my tagbox got so many unknown de=.=
date:Thursday, July 17, 2008
time:5:31 PM
Kenneth
Sorry Kenneth..Ah Bee really don't meant to hurt you..Trust me,the last thing I wanted to really do to you is to hurt you..
Sorry to have break my promise on being with you..
Sorry to have hurt you..
Sorry for everything..
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I was really happy in the past when we were together playing..Really happy..
We went swimming together,go rm together,ton night together & etc..
Really,I was happy..
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Then that day came,I was sot that night..I admit.
I asked you about your feelings to me..You said you like me..I agree to stead with you..
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This was the time when everything starts going wrong..
We should be closer if we stead right?Yet,we went further & further..
It happen everytime when I start steading with pple..
When I'm a friend with a guy,we were close..
But when we stead,I'll just slowly went further & further..
I know that this will really hurts you..
But..
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Kenneth,I like you but..I like you just as a friend..
Someone told me that:
"It's better to failed after trying rather then failed without trying.."
That's why,I agree to go out with you..
I thought,maybe,maybe I will really have feelings for you..
But,I found out that:
even though we are stead,the time we spent together is just the same as those time we spent when we were just friends..
I believe that you knew about this too..
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Breaking with you,is a hard decision..
Because,I don't want to hurt you..
I understand you..I know you belong to those kind of pple who won't tell anyone anything..
& you are really v.pure in your mind..
Pure as in that you don't know what others are doing..
Even if they are bad,you still think they are good..
Just like me,I'm bad..
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I'm afraid that breaking with you really will hurt you & makes you do things that aren't not suppose to be done..
After breaking with you yesterday night,I cried..
Really..
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Sorry Kenneth..
Sorry for the hurt..
Sorry for the breaking..
I'm really sorry..
I know that saying sorry is USELESS now..
But,still..sorry..
I'm really happy to know you..really..
You gave me happy memories..
Take care Kenneth..
Take care Elephant..
Gulugulu-miaow~
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You left a paw;
in muah hart..
date:
time:5:06 PM
yozii ! finally back to post~keke..jux bath & ismell soooo nicee now.miaow~!!!haix ..Yesterday broke with Kenneth ..Sorry Kenneth ..haix ..Yesterday went do IC ..In the end,never get to do..why?cause lei,forget bring-Birthcert (real de)-Parent photocopied IC =.=then was like pon sch for nth lor...but i was glad tat i pon!!! :pwent dere with miaow miaow..then so damn fking ps lor..go take pic..then miaow miaow saw!!grr!!!firefly~fly firefly to the sky~lalalistening song..then haix..aft tat FAILED ic..went home..then slack slack..then go PP wit miaow miaow..tot culd find darlingz dere..but,NO..haix..then at dere,I NEARLY FALL ASLEEP!so scary..then saw a miaow~eating..then got 1 guy he zhao geng lor!!!e!!& it's white in colour!!muahahaha!!!guardian angel~kk..thenthen2 guys was fishing..then they caught a crab..so small!!!!!v.v.v.mini lor..mini crab..yupthen i try picking it up wit straw..put it back to sea/lake/river..then cant..in d end,took my plastic bag,& miaow miaow put it back..=.=then then..i saw a fish jumping out of water!1st time eva in PP..& I SAW A RAINBOW !!! IT IS LIKE SO NICE !i saw de REAL rainbow,ros & sya saw da fake rainbow..haix..so niceeee lor~then sitsit at PP wit miaow miaow till quite late..then go eat mac at rp..then heard someone talking abt vivian..worried..then went home..watch a show abt a male lion & tigress having bb..nice show too!!!then go zzz lor..then da day before went playing rain wit darlingz..then go eat lolli..haix..*eyes closing..so sleepy*today..went sch..& was like earlier than sya!ros never come..sick..then saw ehem..then aft FRC,der-vii came..make me promise her to study hard..I will divya..!^.^o~then then keep msg-ing miaow miaow....$$ fly~then nth much...then at chi,damn lor!tat fking prositute go scold me & etc.girls lor!fk her la!grr~then mai care la..was very very cold..sad sad..sya not here,no one ere..then aft chi is eng ma..da mdm wuuuu daughter came teaching again..as me,sya & shafie was outside (iwan drink water so drag sya then donwan see shafie being 'bullied' so call him along..*omg!im falling asleep..just bang my head 12sec ago,on com table..so sleepy*so drag him go..then he was eating biscuite ma..so get frm him..then went back class aft walking the 3rd lvl awhile..then kana lock out by our class de girls..reason?just cause tat baka GAY was wit us!no la..actually da girls let us in,but..hehe..we 2 cause like pity him so choose to stay outside wit him lor..=.=& I KINDA REGRET IT..& tat JONATHAN!*isit like tat spell???*& tat john-na-tan*^.^o~ read by pronuciation ba*donwan open door for us lor!!!grr!!& he is like just behind da back door..=.=then finally went in..GAY actually said he give me da biscuit..but when he went in,he took it back..then da dancing girl help me take back..3Q3Q~!!!*nodding my head now..sleepy*wonder how i type now..is like base on instine or wat..was quite angry lor..but lei,awhile also nnia la..then aft tat,end class..class left me,sya,john-na-tan,zhen jie & etc.guys..the other content...shhh~!!!!then went home..hahas!!me & sya was like hiding frm jon-na-tan lor!!hide behind da car..1st car-mr yong2nd car-mrs tay3th car-unknowpic upload later
date:Monday, July 14, 2008
time:10:09 PM
Seems like replying pple msg also wrong .. =.=OMG ! miaow miaow noe abt my blog & I totally forget abt it ! =.=haix .. fell asleep jux now ..then dreamt of me being chased by miaow ..then miaow miaow jux standing dere wearing his crown =.=yah ! & he was sitting on da cats !then laughing at me~haix ..childish miaow miaow ah~
date:
time:3:47 PM
went sch today & was not late..then went down sit..sya not there..also cant find ros..was already like so don wan come sch today but mux like be normal infront of dad..so keep talking..then went get down car,was low..sya was late..but lei..keke,nt my business le ba..feeling so lost lor..then sit down dere,siti,haida all like talking,&im da odd one..cant see sun kuei also..no der-vii also..FRC really was so lonely so afraid so lost ..haix ..then went back class..sya wan her lolli..keep say donwan give to her,but in d end,still give..& concequences for giving?my knuckles went blue or isit black ..then all d while was sometime msg-ing miaow miaow & elephant ..then went recess..not even gulu at all..went find ros..then went bk class sit sit dere..& oyah,whole day never talk to sya.^^then then..d&t..was FORCE to change place..then sit wit shi huan..(rmb her name^.^o~)then play play wit her lor..then still msg-ing miaow miaow..haix..like so P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C lorthen asking how go do IC..cause dad told me today last day..=.=then so blur~don even uds..haix..then der-vii keep call,make me send wrong msg..damn ps lor..haix..then went lit...msg-ing still..then went hist..finally stop.kk..then v,good drawing girl go ask me if i noe her name not..of cause la!!!don rmb.. :pthen she said her name which i still don rmb..haix..then 'slacking' in hist..haix..then math lor..cher pon class..LOOK carefully..CHER PON CLASSthen went home..was like talking to ros when sya pop out behind..really scare me lor..T_Tthen went home..Well , I kinda like get permission from Ros & miaow miaow to eat lolli le . ^.^o~Ros is at math time say - "Is like we allow each of us to smoke lor"miaow miaow say - nothing!!!he never reply when i ask ma..so treat as YES..so lei..just now go home,lit one,then smoke lor..got 3 sticks de..1st--ytd go burn it...=.= waste!2nd--it broke into half =.=3rd--in my stomachahahas!!then my nose is like so pain lor..dono y are there pple hu get addicted..luckily im not!!^.^o~then like i play wit da smoke lor..go anh blow..=.=& my mouth still got da smell till now!T_TActually , me & miaow miaow de promise can't treat as real de ba ..At least , he was not serious when we made the promise ..So , I treat it as he was playing with me nia ..& even if he is real , keke .. he won't ever know that I smoke !!muahahaha !!!Why ?Cause I'm not that stupid to tell him right ? ^.~So lei , ros or whoever who come in .. shh ~~~~~Haix .. Feel like so shameless or no face lor .. Keep msg-ing miaow miaow .. Haix .. So lei , will stop msg-ing that much UNLESS is got work or need help la ..Help as in lost ..I DON'T WANT GET CHASE BY CATS FOR BREAKING PROMISE ! OH CATS ! NO !Haix .. Quarreled with mum again ..Why can't she just understand ?
date:Sunday, July 13, 2008
time:11:48 PM
Today ah ~ went to grandma hus at da aftnoon then went pasamalam at night ..kk .. wake at abt 9.30am lo ~!!!!miricle u noe ? cause i zzz like 5am ytd nite..then wake so early..bleah~*pat head*then lei..went breakfast wit dad & bro..keke..lie in bed for lk so long~then went makan then went to take my bike at mac dere..then lei..cant find my bike T_Tin d end,call him ask lor..sad sadthen then went grandma hus~ah ma ya~keke..play play dere lor~ah ma look good..then went bball-ing..then got a bunch of malay guys..cause went wit my cousins & bro ma..2 small boi,1 sec1 girl + me..then my cousin is like wear shorts then those malay guys go see see..i walking behind ma..then i go diao them lor!!then lei..they go wave at me..=.=think i looking at them ah?im staring for god,no,for onglai sake.=.=then go ask if anyone noe them..no one knew..=.=then go BYE~at us...was rolling my eyes lor..hahas...think they saw my leg..=.=then went play lor..keep air ball..sad u noe..cause is like SO close lor..haix..pathetic..then went buy dinner lor..then went pasamalam with miaow miaow!!yup!!!havent speak of miaow miaow before right?kk...miaow miaow is a un-speakable person..keke~shh~then went pasamalam wit miaow miaow..keke..then go buy takoyaki~miaow~!!!then went eat lor..then tat bakaaaa miaow miaow call me promise don eat lollipop..haix...then go promise..now..those who i had promise..EX-dear .. think he will let me ba~I mean,he won't care lor ..HT .. she will let de .. I knew it .. ^^Sya .. she already let le =.=Ros .. think it's quite hard to let her let ba ..Miaow miaow .. seems even more harder ..so lei..in d end,3 out of 5 let me..must pass ros & miaow miaow dere 1st..so lei,before i pass....lollipop,sry~cant touch u~
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time:1:16 AM
I haven't go to ros's blog nor sya's ..So I'm talking in the most PURE stand .. Trust me .. I just drank a cup of coffee & stomach is pain ..This post is for the 2 darlings of mine .. please read with ur hart because im writing in pain ^.^o Everyone had an attitude .. You , me , ros & der-vii ..-The one who attitude most is Sya ..-The one when attitude will turn abusive is me ..-The one when attitude & just keep her mouth shut is Ros ..-The one who attitude & we still will laugh it off is der-vii .. All will have attitude .. I agree .. Everytime when each of us had an attitude , yah , we will complain .. But had we ever like leave each other before ? No .. When sya attitude , the way to solve it is just leave her alone .. When ros attitude , the way to solve it is keep asking her why .. When der-vii attitude , the way to solve it is continue tease her .. act like nothing happen .. When I attitude , the way to solve it is just give way to me .. let me cool down 1st .. But how come ? How come this time , we quarrel until so big ? Why ? I thought we were suppose to be BFF ? Why must we quarrel just cause a pack of lollipop ?! Why ? Maybe pple will think that I'm stupid or what to cry over just because we quarrel .. But no one knows , they don't know that you 2 are really really importen .. I'm still talking to pple , I'm still able to control my temper is cause of you 2 being there .. Yah , you 2 are even closer to me than HT is to me .. HT can't control me that much .. But you 2 , can .. Why must we break contact .. SYA ! Wake up ! It's you who say that why must we break contact last time .. now ? It's you .. Had already like not touch lollipop for so long .. Then had the urge just now .. So go drink coffee .. You are my hubby & ros my mistress .. Ros is your darling & I'm your wifey .. We are both ros's darlings .. Will any of you go tease other pple for their crush ? We will .. Why ? Cause we knew that even if we tease each of us de crush , none of us will do anything cause we knew that the person who is being tease won't do anything .. This is what best friends are .. When we scold each other or just give a slap on the leg , we won't really do anything or what back .. Cause we knew that we don't mean it .. This is what best friends are .. Maybe is cause we are best friends so we can tolerate each of us .. Maybe is cause we are best friends , when we quarrel , we don't care anything & just shoot our unhappiness .. I admit that day I was really v.v.bad mood .. But sya & ros , do you know that when I quarrel with you 2 when at home , I cried .. Pong me , really really treasure u 2 very much you know ? Really very very much .. Remember that day at PP , I said I want us back together at PP when we grow old .. I think none of u treat this as real ba .. But I really hope so you know ? Why ? You 2 know it better that when I'm angry , I will just scold every bad words in my dictionary .. I will just say lots of mean things .. You all everytime say that you all are hurt , but you all don't know that I'm hurting the most .. Yes , we 2 scold you sya .. But do you know I'm the one being hurt most ? Cause I'm the one who tend to see through everyone mistakes after cooling down .. I'm able to see my wrong , but I couldn't admit my fault .. It had always been like that .. I knew that we will very easily break if I did't say sorry , but I can't do it .. The past had always been bugging me .. That's what shape me to what I'm today .. But why , why must we break ? Why ? JUST FUCKING WHY ! JUST BECAUSE OF A STUPID BOX OF LOLLIPOP ?! I REALLY WANT TO JUST CONSUME EVERY SINGLE OF IT MYSELF ! Maybe if I never ever let you 2 know that I smoke before , maybe this won't happen le .. Really , why must this kind of things happen ! Break .. It's suppose to be said by me .. I never say it now .. Because I don't want us to break .. But today , sya , you said it .. What does it mean huh ? We break ? Don't you 2 know that I really don't know how to comuicate with pple ? You 2 is like the closest .. plus der-vii .. It had been like other pple giving in to me when coming to relationship .. This time , why ? Why doesn't sya give in .. I had been pampered to much in relationship .. Why ? I thought we were suppose to be BFF ? We curses each other .. But think again .. Ros , will you be happy if sya really happen thing ? Sya , will you be happy if ros & me really get in trouble ? Will I be happy if any of you happen anything .. The answers for we 3 , I dare confirm is NO ! Then why ? Why must everything happen ? Had been friends with ros & der-vii for 3 years & sya 2 .. But why , this year we are in different class & keep quarreling ? I don't know what I'm typing & talking .. But I believe you 2 will uds .. What is going on now in my mind is the scence of we 3 .. Sorry , really can't concentrate when crying ..
date:Tuesday, July 8, 2008
time:11:31 PM
had been BUG by ros for the past few days to blog..i lazy la~when free i blog yea ! either tmr or thurs..k?
